I think...Therefore I learn.

I have to write a paper for Thursday and it's funny because I'm sitting here, trying to make progress, all the while conjuring up thoughts and ideas in my mind and yet, none of it actually makes it to the blank screen in front of me. I'm writing an essay even though, technically I could do a powerpoint. Easier, right? Wrong. I tried to get all my thoughts out on slides and just couldn't! The text that I'm writing about is just so incredibly rich with philosophy, history, theology, that I can't simply express it in a few slides. I need to write it in a paper. But I can't even conjure up formal sentence structures and it sucks because I have so much going on in my mind right now and I know that it's all good and perfect and everything but I can't freaking form an understandable sentence!!!

Man...i suck. Like really. I'm a good writer!! Why am I so hesitant to let my words flow onto paper? Some say outlines work well for this sort of thing and maybe they're right.

But I say it wouldn't help. Or maybe I'm just lazy.

Yes...laziness. Oh sweet Labor Day bliss.

So here are my thoughts:::::::

it was published in 2002.
about the fall of the roman empire
about the medieval ages around the black plague
about world war II and the holocaust

Central theme: the preservation of civilization
And yet, the more civilized one becomes, the more capable one is of corruption
Laws create boundaries to be broken.
In order for there to be order, one must have a sense of authority as well as the respect for authority
Which means there is a need for a leader, a government, a bishop, etcetera.
Positions of power
create greed
tyranny
control
actions for the sake of action
Power leads to corruption
and the 'civilization' becomes barbaric
yet still keeps its name? And that's just more corruption

Men begin to take actions. Wrong action, corrupted action, horrible, murderous action
For the sake of the greater good
Or atleast, what they believe to be good
Civilization.
And it all falls to ruin.

Bleeeeeeeeechhh

~M