Vanilla Twilight

This morning I found a most amazing song. I can already tell it is a new favorite. It's called Vanilla Twilight by Owl City. Here are the lyrics:

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'Cause all doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because when I think of you
I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink I'll think of you
Tonight
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear that I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach back through the past
I'll whisper in your ear,
Darling, I wish you were here.

It's one of those songs that I listen over and over again.

So I started school last Wednesday. It's okay I guess. I just don't know how it snuck up on me so fast. People say life goes faster as you grow older and I guess that's what it is. It's one of the forces in the world that you can never fight. "Stop this Train" by John Mayer is a good song that portrays getting older. Wow, sorry, too much music:)

So school has been...okay. I love my new teachers, except for math. She is soooo annoying. Like the way she says things and phrases. She says "Pro-cess" Instead of process and for some reason it really bugs me. She's also a huge calculator freak.

Okay moving on. English class is gonna rock this year. Mr Brown is fantastic. History will be hard but good. I'm not gonna learn anything new in French. Religion is pretty schweet. Chem might be hard, but Mr. Torde is super nice and interesting. Father Bernie is AMAZINg.

I have A Lunch. I'm now sitting with a bunch of sophomores I like because the girls that I thought I would sit with have been pretty nasty lately. Not to me, but to other girls and I'm sick of it. Hopefully I'll get to know new people this year. Genuinely nice people. It's hard to find them in high school. Or...maybe I'm just too judgmental...once again.

Field hockey is really what's getting me through all this depressingness. Not that I'm depressed. School just gets me down. We haven't had any big assignments yet, it's just knowing that I WILL is what's making me this way. And like...WHY? Why do I care so much? Why can't I just view school as a place I go everyday and I can handle the workload, because I know I can handle it, I just get so worked up about it. Then I complain and get down. But really, it's going to be fine.

Maybe it's worse this year because I had a bad summer. Like I never fully separated myself from stress and school and drama. There was always something messing it up. Anyway, bottom line is that I really want to just sit back, relax and enjoy this year.

~M