Lake Wes

I figure this is kinda my summer journal, considering I started it last summer and it helped me through a lot. So I am going to start it up again, maybe write every day, or every other day depending on how busy I get.

Anyways, we arrived at Lake Weslemkoon yesterday around 4 pm. Beautiful day, but we were all pretty exhausted and just hung around with my family for the night, unpacked a bit, ate dinner, relaxed, etc. I went to bed around 9 or 10 something and read for a long time, my brother gently snoring with a book in his hands in the bed next to mine. I finished my book around 11:30, turned out the lights and did not wake till around 10:15 this morning.

I always sleep well up here. My bed is so comfortable. More comfy than my one at home, surprisingly. When I'm here in the summer, everything seems to fade. Time is not an issue. Plans jump up spontaneously. A laugh of a Dempsey can be heard a mile away on this lake. And there are a lot of laughs. Last year, I suppose would be an exception to my sress-free idea of a Canadian summer. And the year I was entering high school was extremely tough as well. This year, however, will be the year to remember. I am completely stress-free. There are no summer assignments. I am comfortable with where I am in life. I am a senior. I am in love. I am seventeen. The world is mine and the future is ahead of me. All I have to do is live it out and explore.

I am really excited to be a senior, to walk the halls of Rice knowing that in a year, I'll be gone. It's bittersweet I suppose, but more sweet than bitter now. I'm excited for my future. I'm excited to be 18, 19, 20, 21, to apply to college, to have roommates, to get in fights with my roommates for eating all of the bananas or never cleaning up their sides of the room. I'm excited.

Of course, it's not pure excitement. There is great uncertainty and fear and insecurities that come along with it all. Who will stay close to me? Who will drift away? Who will be the first person I call when I'm going through a breakdown or stressing about the 40 page paper that's due at the end of the semester? But life is all about uncertainty and learning how to adapt and what to believe in.

The lake up here is beautiful. The smell of coppertone surrounds you. I realize now how blessed I am to be able to come up here every summer.

As for what I did today, I truly took it all in. Soaked up the sun and cooled off in the refreshing water. I beat my cousin in Acey Doucey. She beat me last night.

I love summer.

~M